2005 me.
Hello loves. I don’t have many photos of me from a time when I was feeling most sad and unhealthy, but, thanks to my friend Colette, I was able to find some from a particular time.
To my surprise, many people are super surprised when I explain that I’ve struggled through being incredibly shy, insecure, sad, depleted, unhealthy, depressed, socially anxious and incredibly negative, especially when it came to self-worth. So, I want to share who I was for much of my life.
I’m sharing this for those of you who can relate, want support, but, also need to see a living version of why I do this work.
It’s because I get it. While I still face rough patches, I have natural tools to maintain a relative sense of balance.
I have a zest for life now (most days), generally more energy than ever and a sense of self-worth.
And, I have learned to appreciate the fullness of life even on the hard days.
Like many, I’ve struggled through depression, anxiety, negative body image, poor boundaries around my time and energy and a really confusing relationship with food.
I still work through some of these topics, but, now with a lease of self-love, non-comparison, clarity and a total appreciation for the lessons involved.
Above is 2005 me while living in Louisville. I don’t know that little girl eyeing that coconut, but, love so much that she made her way through this picture from so long ago, lol.
So, to lay it out, in the past, my moods and blood sugar were all over the place.
Sadness was a daily state.
I didn’t look to the future,
clung to the past,
felt overwhelmed and frustrated a lot,
blamed myself for everything,
hated waking up (so tired and foggy),
could rarely sleep through the night,
relied on alcohol way too much,
would either eat nothing, or, eat it all,
obsessed about my weight,
felt crazy confused about what foods to eat,
compared myself physically to others,
dimmed my light a lot in fear I’d take from another,
thought I wasn’t smart or talented,
had no clue I had gifts to share beyond cleaning and organizing,
The list goes on … it was a terrible way to feel.
So … I kept on trucking and doing the work of self.
I was always spiritual, highly sensitive and dove head
first into books on healing, the metaphysical and the afterlife.
But, I didn’t quite yet understand the importance of implementing boundaries, self-trust, self-love and self-acceptance.
I didn’t understand how to keep myself feeling energetically clear, or grounded.
But, much like my clients, I committed to the path of self-love and healing, found my inner light and found reasons to love myself … the big one being … finally understanding that I didn’t need a reason.
We all deserve love without reason. And that starts from within … being authentic to your needs, desires and true nature.
This includes getting closer to nature,
Trusting yourself,
Committing to taking care of yourself,
Developing a deep sense of self worth,
Sharing your gifts,
Honoring your true desires,
Cutting out the bullshit,
Letting go of toxic relationships,
Setting boundaries on your time and energy,
Saying “no”,
Saying “yes”,
Not giving two flying ducks what they think,
Doing so with love,
Taking time to truly nourish yourself,
Mind, body, spirit, emotions, soul,
Connecting with the elements,
Taking space for quiet,
Making space for expression,
Feeding yourself inside and out,
Finding your true friends,
Eating the foods that nourish you,
Sleeping when you need to,
Honoring a schedule that suits you,
Making space for simple pleasures everywhere,
Trusting in magic,
Tending to your personal rhythms and rituals,
Making space for sacred self-care,
Seeing how you make waves,
Finding inner balance,
Inspiring others too,
Transforming the world we live,
Holding tight to your Soul’s conviction,
because we’re all here for a reason.
We’re in it together, but, we’re not worth shit when we’re falling apart.
It’s about connection,
Not separation,
So, please, take time now to truly connect to yourself,
Your needs,
Your health,
Your dreams,
Your boundaries,
Your love.
No one else can make you do this.
So, please, if this speak to you, stop what you’re doing right now.
Take inventory of what you want,
And make a plan to prioritize these things.
Not another to-do list for that pile,
But, a promise to yourself that it all changes starting today.
It’s time.
So, if you are ready. And only if you’re ready, and you want support from me, book a coaching session. online above.
I’m here to help you and pretty confident that if you’re ready and willing to take the journey on, you’ll receive so many positive results.
AND! It will be fun along the way. So much of this wok, again, is about embracing what you LOVE and stepping out of shame.
This is my profession because it’s my passion. I understand the ins and outs because I’ve been though my own shit show treasure trove of healing and have helped hundreds of others 1:1 find similar results.
Right now, I now have space for two more weekly coaching clients and I want to fill them as I like my life to be full.
Especially when times are feeling rough in the world … as I know it’s when we need to do the work the most.
Love to you,
Nishaan (today me):
